This is the life!

celestieall @ 2006-06-06T04:42:00

2006-06-06T10:58:44Z

oh. my. goodness. today was CRAZY! (my today, not people with normal schedules today)
so i woke up around 3 and talked to one of my roommates for a bit. she left and i called mom. she had to go and i was all alone. with no one to talk any sense into me, i sent a text to hottie mchothot. i asked him if he wanted to go out for ice cream. he said he was busy until after fhe and asked if we could do it then. i said yes and told him to let me know when he was done with everything. well folks, tonight was a first for me. the first time i ever got stood up. that's right, he stood me up. i looked freaking cute tonight too! i'm not too upset though. see, his birthday is tomorrow, 6/6/06, so i figure that as the spawn of satan he really had an obligation to stand me up.
don't worry though, i got cheered up. i'm gonna be laughing for the next week.ok, so i was playing games on yahoo and i end up playing with this guy who decides to start talking to me, but he's obviously having trouble with his english. so i asked him in spanish if he only speaks spanish and he said yes. so we were talking in spanish, having a nice conversation, very friendly. he's an old guy with a wife and kids and stuff. so i asked him if we could e-mail and he could help me with my spanish and he said yes and we exchanged e-mail addresses. after playing for a while, he left to go to bed. this is where it gets good. a couple hours later, he comes back on and sends me like 4 invitations to a private table so i go and he starts asking me all these weird questions. here's the conversation from what i can remember, only in english:

him: are you happy to be with me?
me: i don't understand
him: do you like talking to me?
me: yeah, it's fun
him: is that all?
me: no, you're nice
him: is that all?
me: i don't understand, why are you asking me this?
him: because we have to have a relationship on the internet
me: we can be friends on the internet
him: no more than friends?
me: no
him: why?
me: because you're in argentina, you're old, you're married, and you have kids
him: what if i say i love you?
me: you don't know me
him: that's not important
me: yes, it's very important
him: why do you want to send me e-mail?
me: to practice my spanish
him: is that all?
me: yes
him: i have a wife!
me: okay, you don't want to e-mail then?
him: she would get very mad if i e-mailed another woman
me: we don't have to e-mail
him: do you know who i am?
me: no
him/her: i'm his wife!

so yeah, that was freaking hilarious. she told me i'm not allowed to talk to him anymore and if he tries to play games with me on yahoo i have to say no and she gave me her email address so that she could help me with my spanish instead. freaking hilarious, i tell you! i haven't stopped laughing! and i don't think i will soon!

celestieall @ 2006-06-02T05:04:00

2006-06-02T11:25:41Z

goodness gracious, i've had an interesting day! so a couple of weeks ago i went to play volleyball with my ward which they started doing as a weekly thing. there was a guy there with some other people who was REALLY good looking and funny! and he got major points for being a movie-quoter. he quoted the muppets even! anyway, i tried not to think too much about it because i was focusing on a mission. i keep being reminded that marriage is more important for a girl my age, but i wanted to marry josh so i just wasn't gonna think about it yet. well, josh sent me a "dear jane" a couple days ago. so now i'm back to trying to be a part of the dating scene so that i can say my priorities are where they should be. so i didn't play volleyball last week cuz one of my intramural teams had a game, but i played again tonight. and yes, thank goodness, he was there. he would also frequently look in my direction and use friendly teasing(we were on opposing teams). we got kicked off the court we were on by some youth conference people. most of my ward was playing on the court we still had, and hottie mchothot was just tossing a volleyball with some of his friends. so i kinda just stayed close and before long he tossed the ball to me and i was part of their little circle. he continued to flirt with me, which gave me that attractive feeling that i've really been needing for a long time. once he almost dove on top of me and then he was like "that would've been funny" and i said "i know you wanna get close to me, but gosh!" and he said "hey, whatever it takes" and i said "you don't have to be violent to do it" and he said something about "it depends on how you like it" so yeah. major hardcore flirting. so as he and his friends were getting ready to go, he was kinda asking some questions about me, but none of them were about my phone number! i was totally almost like "so are you gonna ask for my number or what?" but one of his friends was like hovering, waiting for him. ugh!
so after he left i asked one of the guys in my ward how creepy it would be if a girl talked to him and then looked him up on stalkernet(BYU directory). he said he actually got a girlfriend that way...so i did it! i found his cell phone number and i sent him a text message. here's how the conversation went:
me: i hope you like girls who are forward
him: sure, but who is this?
me: oh come on! volleyball?
him: oh right! but how'd you get this number?
me: magic
him: know what the bible says about magic and sorcery?
me: i have a feeling i will soon
him: fire and brimstone
me: be grateful. you'll have company(that referred to him saying he was going to hell during vollyball)
him: yes indeed, good point
me: so you haven't mentioned a girlfriend yet
him:yeah i'm kinda unsure on that subject, as of monday, a coworker and i have been spending some time together, but i don't know where its going.
me: well, it's always a good idea to keep your options open
him: oh absolutely, especially when you're unsure of the game plan
me: so i'm assuming you're busy all weekend?
him: this weekend probably, i work saturday so that cuts into other things i might enjoy doing
me: what about right now?
him: waiting for somebody to drop some music off, wanna come over?
me: love to, i'll call in a few minutes for directions
him: deal

so i went to his apartment! oh my gosh, i'm insane! but it actually went REALLY well. he kind of invited me to play volleyball on tuesday with his friends(mine only play on thursday) and he said we'll definitely talk again. oh my gosh, he's so hot! and he's way cool too. i mean, i've learned my lesson on going for looks alone.
so anyway, just a little while ago something at work started beeping and it sounded like something was gonna explode. i had to call and wake up my boss. he told me to just turn off some stuff and not worry about it. so i'm getting paid to do nothing again. i have the best job ever.

celestieall @ 2006-05-26T04:46:00

2006-05-26T10:48:56Z

so you'd think that since i'm ALWAYS up at 4:30 in the morning, i wouldn't be all tired and giddy at that time. WRONG-O!
i was looking online at some LDS music and i saw one cd that had me giggling for at least five minutes. it was called "LDS super hits of the 80s" HA!!! I'm laughing again just thinking about it!
i was at the byu bookstores website looking at this stuff and i saw a link for games so i played one. it was a game where you try to make field goals by kicking a red bird with a u of u symbol on it! isn't that freaking hilarious?
ahem, i just had to share.

celestieall @ 2006-05-26T02:33:00

2006-05-26T08:51:24Z

well today was completely awesome. I slept a LOT which doesn't happen real often, so that was pretty darn exciting. then i went and hung out with one of my friends and watched a couple episodes of gilmore girls. i totally want to be lorelai, and i think we actually have some similarities. then i went and got some food at hogi yogi. they didn't have what i wanted, but what i got was still good. plus the hogi yogi i went to is also attached to a doughnut place so i got a maple bar. i love maple bars. then i went to my kickball game. oh, i'm on an intramural kickball team. and soccer. and ultimate frisbee. and i play volleyball with my ward once a week when games don't conflict. the teams i'm on are mostly people in my ward. anyway, kickball is the one team we have that's actually good. and we're REALLY good! tonight i believe we won 23-14. i made like a zillion catches and there was only one time i was up that i didn't make it home so i'm feeling pretty good about myself. i also flirted a little with a guy on the other team who i called "kansas" cuz that's what it said on his shorts. he left with a girl, so i'm assuming he's taken which actually makes me feel better cuz i wouldn't have wanted to date him anyway. i have a mission and josh to think about. speaking of which, my friend from when i was in diapers just got her mission call! she's going to manchester, england. i have to admit i'm pretty jealous. first, because she got her call and i haven't been able to start filling out my papers and second, because she's going outside the country and i already know i can't do that. at least i still have a chance of getting to learn another language. i dunno how much chinese they speak in england. there's also like five girls i went to china with who are either on missions or have received their calls. it's driving me crazy! i want to go so bad! i think this is one of those crazy things i'm supposed to learn from or something. what? patience? who needs it? so yeah, patience is probably the personality trait i'm most lacking. and just so you know, there isn't a mood thingy for impatient. which actually probly doesn't matter cuz i didn't start feeling that way till i started writing this and i'll probly stop thinking about it not long after i'm done. i'm actually pretty happy with where i am right now. i have a great relationship with the Lord. it could still use some work, but it's getting there. i've started talking to Him on my way to work. it's weird. i've never really done anything like that before. but it's great, because i can just talk and talk and He listens and doesn't interrupt or anything. i wasn't ever very good at just talking to Him because i wanted someone to be there to console me, i guess. but i've learned a lot recently. i've grown a lot. i'm really grateful for all that i've been blessed with, even if i don't always appreciate it. i know now that God is there no matter what. and just because he won't be there to physically give you a hug doesn't mean he won't help you feel better. sometimes all you need to do is talk. and He's always there, just waiting to listen.

celestieall @ 2006-05-24T01:54:00

2006-05-24T07:58:38Z

wow! I totally didn't expect to get three comments! especially that quickly...suddenly i feel very powerful...or like i actually have friends or something. well...i don't really have anything to update right now. i was just really surprised to see the comments. i still don't know who told me to update though...the world may never know.

celestieall @ 2006-05-23T01:30:00

2006-05-23T07:47:03Z

well, i've had one request(if you can call it that) to update my live journal. seeing as how that's one more than i ever expected, i thought i would comply even though i don't know who the request was from.
so...what's new...well, gosh...a lot, cuz it's been so long since i've written. i'm currently preparing to go on a mission. i haven't started filling out my papers or anything yet, but i've talked to the bishop and the process should start in a few weeks. a couple of months ago i was practically engaged to someone who now thinks i'm completely psycho. literally. he's just always had a pretty simple and stable life and it freaked him out that mine is like the exact opposite. i have to change my major yet again because i was majoring in international relations most recently. i thought this was a nice way of combining what i want to do with what my mom wants me to do so everyone would be happy. unfortunately, i learned last semester that i hate politics with an unbridled passion. therefore, i'll be in school until i'm at least 80 years old because i can never make up my mind.
right now i have a job where i scan microfilm from midnight till 8 am. you wouldn't think that microfilm needs to be scanned in the middle of the night, but you'd be wrong. the company i work for doesn't have many scanning machines, so they want the ones they have to be running all the time. that's where i come in. but recently(tonight for example) we've been so far ahead that they actually WANT me to just sit here and do nothing while they pay me for it. it's great! i've also decided i'm in love with my ex-boyfriend. he's on a mission right now, and if all goes according to plan he should only get back a few months before i do.
umm...i finally bought a swimsuit...and i got a shirt with yoshi on it too! i found out that two other girls in my ward bought the same shirt at different times so i made them wear it to the ward social we had on saturday and we took pictures. oh! i was sick for like a month! it was awful, i had to go to the emergency room twice and they never found out what was wrong with me. i'm all better now though, so it's all good.
i think that's enough for now. i don't know if this thing is actually worth updating. tell ya what. if i get 3 comments from 3 different people, i'll update again. deal? deal.

celestieall @ 2005-06-28T23:59:00

2005-06-29T06:16:31Z

so it's been a while since i've updated, but i don't think it matters too much. i mean, no one actually reads this thing. (no one being like 3 people) but i guess i'm updating for myself, since i'm way better at this than actual journal-writing.
so i've been back from china for about two weeks now. i went to glendale and stayed with eileen and victoria for a while. i got to see a bunch of friends from high school and i had a really good time. i also got my haircut. then alethea and athena came down and we all went to disneyland. also way fun! then i stayed with the sister set of twins for a few days and picked up most of the stuff i left there to bring up to utah, where i am now. i saw my mom a bit and we actually got along pretty well. i won't say i like steve, but i'm learning not to hate him. i'm getting a lot better at not holding grudges and even not getting mad in the first place. there's definitely still room for improvement though. anyway, i'm in utah now. it's pretty cool here. i've met some really nice people and one of the girls next door grew up in the same stake as josh. oh yeah, i've been talking to josh a lot again. we're pretty good friends, i think. it's kinda weird since we never did the friend thing before we dated, but it's really good. he's gonna be a leader at a boy scout camp for the next couple months though. anyway, the people here are way awesome. especially the girl who knows josh! her name is cassie and she's way cute.
she told me about institute tonight so i got to go to that. it was really good and the teacher is really funny. he said a lot that really made me think. and he gave a scripture reference that called the temple "exceeding magnifical" how cool is that? i think it was in 1 Chronicles 22...
oh yeah, i'm living with my grandma and dad right now, but dad will be moving out in a couple months. i'm trying to find a job, but...ugh, i hate job hunting more than anything. it'll work out though! eventually.

celestieall @ 2005-06-14T12:31:00

2005-06-14T04:43:30Z

so i'm going back to the states tomorrow. i'm trying to be excited, but i'm just not. i have to leave my kids, start my life all over, and i recently hurt someone i really care about very badly. i feel like a complete loser. i still have to do the progress reports for my kids and a bunch more stuff. ugh, hopefully that burrito will cheer me up.

celestieall @ 2005-06-04T23:20:00

2005-06-04T15:45:21Z

okay, so about the other kid i visited...i'm a little scatter-brained right now, so this probly won't be the whole story...
the kid for this visit was jim. again, i went with richelle and jennifer. we were told it would be really far away but the mini-bus only charged us 30 kwai so we knew it wouldn't be too bad. then the mini-bus couldn't find the place. that was fun. it really was, actually! luckily, we had the phone number for the place we were going. the driver called and apparently was told to leave us at a gas station where the family would come get us. so we were waiting at this gas station when a guy on a moped comes up and calls a cab for us. he seemed like a nice chinese guy trying to help out the stupid americans, so we tried to politely tell him we didn't want the cab and that we were waiting for someone. richelle showed him the address for where we were going and he laughed and pointed to himself. i had only seen the kid's mom before! how was i supposed to know who this guy was?
so we got there and they gave us lots of fruit and we met jim's uncles and grandparents and aunt and baby cousin who he totally adores. we took lots of pictures, as did the family. what was weird was that his dad wasn't there and he lived with his mom's grandparents instead of his dad's. this led me to believe that his parents are separated. richelle...has a problem with putting two and two together sometimes and kept asking about the dad. all they ever said was that he is in beijing.
they took us out to eat and we actually had GOOD chinese chinese food! and it wasn't even scary! then they brought us back and they gave us a ton more fruit and jim had us watch some tom and jerry with him. it was nice cuz there's not much language so we could all understand it. until a dog started talking in english. then jim got up and pushed a button and the dog started speaking chinese. jim looked at me, shrugged, and sat back down. he's SO cute! we left a little while later.
then this morning someone knocked on my door. as beth went to answer it, i thought "go away!" then i kept hearing my name so i kinda got up and asked what was going on and beth said one of my students named tim wanted me to go to his house. i have two tims and i didn't really want to go to the house of either one. then i went to the door and saw that it wasn't tim! it was zach! i love zach! he can wake me up any day! he held up a key and said "teacha, come to my house!" zach played in richelle's room while the rest of us got ready. richelle didn't come this time but the teacher brandon did. when we got to his house(oh yeah, his mom teaches here so he lives on campus), his mom wasn't there. this concerned us, so we tried to get him to come back to our place. it took a while, but we got him to agree to come after we watched some video he was putting in. then his mom came home and didn't look remotely surprised and gave us peaches. we felt a lot more comfortable then and we watched two episodes of ultra man with zach who was much more entertaining. then we watched some show about biker mice till we left so we could eat lunch. anyway, it was way fun!

celestieall @ 2005-06-03T22:37:00

2005-06-03T15:12:54Z

so apparently mom got the return trip just cuz it was cheaper to go round trip than one way. so my little sister tells me because, big surprise, i still haven't heard from my mom. whatever.
so today and yesterday i got to do the funnest thing! i visited the families of a couple of my students! it was so much fun and so awesome to see what life is really like for chinese people. it was also really interesting cuz none of the parents spoke english and the two kids we visited are not exactly the best english speakers in the class. they're way cute though!
so yesterday we went to brandon's house. he lived with his mom, dad, grandma and grandpa which is really normal around here. it was in a really small apartment that pretty much almost all americans would probly refuse to live in. his mom is like 8 months pregnant(it was really cute to see brandon hug his mom's big belly and when she said something to him one time, he told us the baby was kicking!) so we knew they were pretty well off cuz they were finding a way to have more than one kid and we had a fairly clear view of their bathroom which had a western toilet! brandon seemed kinda weird when we first got there. i don't think he understood why in the world his teachers were at his house. but once his mommy came out of the back room, he was his lovable self.(he's the same kid who offered me a chair and started massaging my back on the first day of teaching) we brought a big sticker of america that had all the states on it and showed them which states we were from(i went with richelle and jennifer) and they thought it was pretty cool. we also gave them a bag of treats and a souvenir spoon from idaho the jennifer doesn't even know why she had. brandon really liked the chocolate AND he liked the spoon and immediately started using it to eat the half of the watermelon that hadn't been cut and served yet. SO cute! then they told him to ask us if we wanted more so he held it up and said "watermelon!" we said "yeah, watermelon!" he said "eat it, no eat it?" heehee. they also took us out to eat at this place with a whole in the table where they but the pot to cook your food. it was...scary. there was this broth in the pot and the first thing in there was chicken. sounds okay, right? well, it was black. and it wasn't like...the meat part of the chicken. there was feet and liver and all sorts of fun stuff. i guess there was meat too. then they brought live shrimp and just dumped it all in the same pot. again, kinda scary. they were still staring at us while we ate them. they just kept bringing more and more stuff and putting it all in the same pot! i guess it wasn't real scary after the shrimp though. anyway, it was lots of fun and of course i took lots of pictures.
the other visit was way fun too and i definitely need to write about it. but not now, cuz i'm tired.

celestieall @ 2005-05-31T23:20:00

2005-05-31T15:29:33Z

so i emailed mom to ask if i could leave from fresno to get to utah on june 25th. i also explained that the reason i've been trying to talk to her through the twins so much lately is because she never responds to my emails.
fortunately, she made the plans and got me a flight from fresno to salt lake for june 25th. did she send me an email to tell me about it? of course not. she had travelocity send me the itinerary. she couldn't even email me herself! what's the deal? also, she has me booked for another flight from salt lake back to fresno on july 30! what the heck? did she think that when i said "i'm moving to utah" that meant "i thought i'd go to utah for a while and then go back to fresno which is nowhere near where i need to go to school!"?
*sigh* i'm kind of flustered.

celestieall @ 2005-05-31T10:02:00

2005-05-31T02:05:18Z

okay, so it didn't really work. i never really liked that stuff anyway.

celestieall @ 2005-05-30T22:03:00

2005-05-30T14:18:04Z

so i dunno if this worked how i wanted it to...we'll see...

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celestieall @ 2005-05-30T21:49:00

2005-05-30T14:05:49Z

watch out, this should be a long one.
so the kindergarten kids are doing a big performance for children's day. some other kids are doing one too, but not on children's day. anyway, i found out today that i'm singing at the kindergarten performance. who knew? i learned a chinese pop song a while ago, so that's what i'm singing. today there was a rehearsal and i sat tickling a kid named rick and blaming it on other people while he did the same to me.
on the way back, i saw my kids! yay! problem: someone told them that i'll be going to america soon. ann was cool with it though. she said "you go america, you give me COOL toy!" and then said "who's your boy?" "i don't have a boy, ann" "who's your boy, america?" "i don't have a boy in america!" "you go america, you get boy, you and boy come to guanghua" oh boy...
then rose heard us talking about going to america "you go mei guo(america) and come here" "umm...no, when i go to america, i can't come back" then she jumped into my arms and kept repeating the same thing and kinda sorta crying. i felt SO bad. her class was leaving to go to lunch and she would go try to catch up, then run back and jump on me and cry about how she wanted me to come back after i go to america...it was hard.
class was also quite an adventure today. normally, all the classes in my group are on the second floor and the kids rotate between four classes. well, today they permanantly moved two of our classes to the sixth floor so they not only have to rotate rooms, but also between FOUR floors! i'm SO glad we only have a couple weeks left. the change made the kids restless and i was going absolutely insane. one of my usual worst classes was actually pretty good though. at the very beginning of teaching i was frustrated with stuff and the room changing and everything and ann kept running ahead of me and i got mad and told her she was bad. so she sat and cried during most of the class and then left, never to return. then all the other kids pointed out my flaws all day. probly the BEST behaved kid told me i was fat today! GOSH! i already lost like twenty pounds! what do you want from me??
things got better. i spent some time alone in my room playing solitaire and listening to my disney music and singing along. it relaxed me quite a bit. then i went to say good night to my kids and jeremy caught me. he doesn't sleep with the other kids and didn't want me to go, but he wouldn't let me follow him home either. so we just hung out and took pictures of each other. i didn't get to see my other boys, and i only got to see my girls for a few minutes, but richelle and i went to say good night to the older girls. sally is my "boyfriend." long story. well, not really.
oh! and then richelle and i played on this huge thing! we don't know what it's really for, but it makes an AWESOME teter totter! way fun!

celestieall @ 2005-05-27T23:39:00

2005-05-27T15:48:23Z

celestieall @ 2005-05-27T21:44:00

2005-05-27T14:04:13Z

so a while ago, beth met some chinese guys on campus who teach here. they offered to give us chinese lessons and have been doing so ever since. their english names are john and calum(yes, i'm sure it's calum and not caleb. sad, i know. i didn't give him his english name.) at the last class, someone asked about chinese chess, so that is what today's class was devoted to. brandon, another american teacher, and i were the only ones brave enough to try it out. i was doing really well for a while, but i lost focus cuz brandon always took so long to move. therefore, i lost. i was pretty cool with it though. i've become a much more gracious loser lately. i realize that i'm definitely not the best at very much.
anyway, i told john that i lost and he said "ah yes, boys always win. they think better." now let me make this clear. i am definitely not a hardcore feminist, but i'm not cool with the whole inferiority thing either. i don't believe in a dominant sex. so i said to john, "there's something you need to learn about americans. americans know that sometimes boys are better and sometimes girls are better." so john says something about how there are so many presidents and none of them are girls and i say it's cuz women don't WANT to be presidents. john says "yes, so they don't have to think." brandon, who had been saying how screwy guys are, said something about some country who had a woman rule for a while and it brought the most prosperity and the least debt ever. john kinda backed off a little, but he still has so much to learn. heehee
so later on, i was on my way to see my kids when some random girls walked up and gave me a kitten and refused to take it back. i had no idea what to do so i kept it for a while and brought it somewhere warm where it slept for a while. then i realized that my only option was to let it go outside. i feel really bad. if i see any dead cats in the near future, i'm gonna cry.

celestieall @ 2005-05-22T21:08:00

2005-05-22T13:31:37Z

so what is everyone in america doing these days? going to see the third episode of star wars, am i right? well i may not be in america, but i sure as heck wasn't gonna be left out! actually, i was cuz i'm so broke. but neil acknowledged that i'm one of the few girls up here that "actually appreciates star wars" and insisted on paying for me to be able to go. he's a nice guy, but i think he just wanted someone to be there who would understand his rants. anyway, it worked out.
moving on...
in order to see the movie in english, brittany, lindsay, neil, and i had to go on an hour and a half train ride to shanghai and then take a taxi from the train station. i actually think we ended up at a different theater than we meant to go to, but it still worked out. this area of shanghai was like nothing i had ever seen before. actually, it was exactly like something i had seen before, which is why it was so weird. there were white people EVERYWHERE and it seriously felt like i was at citywalk! i was seriously freaking out at the number of white people. i mean, there were even like pre-teens just hanging out in china! i didn't know what to do with myself.
the theater itself was awesome too and i got a snickers to eat during the movie! it was a beautiful thing. we took pictures with the star wars cardboard cut-out stuff and went to see the movie. awesome movie, by the way. i only had one real problem with it and that is that there is no way that padme had those two freaking huge babies inside her. she wasn't even big enough to give birth to one baby, let alone two. those babies should have been premature and dying or something. but no, they were freaking huge and remarkably clean. i guess the movie's focus really was on big saber fights and lasers and not the accurate portrayal of childbirth.
after the movie, we ate at the japanese restaurant we're addicted to, took a train back to wuxi, and had our daily dose of alias. overall, good day.

celestieall @ 2005-05-16T22:17:00

2005-05-16T14:36:29Z

so part of my lesson today involved dying peanut butter different colors. the kids totally loved it and it went really well, but here's the fun part:
in my first class, one of the kids pointed to the food coloring and said "i want to taste it!" (insert evil laugh) so i put a drop of red food coloring on his hand which, of course, made all the other kids want to taste it too! the best part about this is that i had asked beth to come take pictures of me teaching today, which meant i had a camera to take pictures of my kids with bright red mouths. it was awesome! except that they absolutely hated the taste and kept spitting...
so i had your four basic food coloring colors: red, blue, yellow, and green. i also teach four classes. so it was obviously my obligation to take pictures of each class with differently colored mouths. unfortunately, the batteries in my camera were dying and were completely gone by the time the last class's tongues had turned yellow. this is how evil i am: i'm going to make the last class ingest yellow dye again tomorrow.
i don't think they'll have too much of a problem with it though. they were the only class that, despite the disgusting taste, would hold their hands out for more every time i brought out a new color. heehee, so much fun.

celestieall @ 2005-05-15T00:59:00

2005-05-14T17:03:28Z

so today started off pretty bad, then was kinda fun, then kinda good, then blah, and then REALLY bad.
i just have so many things that i'm DYING to talk about, but can't. even when people ask me and i can tell they're genuinely concerned, i can't do it. whenever i open up, someone gets hurt. sometimes it's me, sometimes it's the other person, and quite often it's both.
i hate keeping things bottled up and i know i really shouldn't, but i'm so afraid not to. i don't really know what else i can do.
i'm also really upset about my little sister. we used to be really close and she used to look up to me, but not she seems to think i'm stupid. i miss her so much. i wish things could be the way they used to be between us.
i really just want someone to talk to...

celestieall @ 2005-05-12T22:41:00

2005-05-12T15:14:50Z

today was fun! first i got up to do some extra teaching that i do thurday mornings. usually at 9:50 but today i was told it was 8:30. apparently, it wasn't either. i got there and the teacher told me i didn't have to teach today. so i went back and did other stuff instead.
then when i went to teach the kids i teach every day...well, first off, i was almost late because everyone here is addicted to alias and has been watching all the episodes on dvd. so i get there and look in my kids' classroom and there's no one in there. this is kinda normal cuz sometimes they go to another room for music or outside for p.e. the other teachers in my rotation were later than i was, so i didn't feel bad anymore. we waited for twenty minutes after we were supposed to start teaching and still had no idea where our kids were. so finally we got someone to find out for us and just my group ends up not having to teach cuz our class was watching some performance by a bunch of their teachers. it was awesome and we got to sit with our kids for the end of the show! i let amy and ann look at my store, and they actually like it now cuz i got some girly stuff(they told me before that they wanted to switch classes cuz i didn't).
later i played what was supposed to be ultimate frisbee with some people. it wasn't ultimate frisbee, but it was fun.
then i went to say good night to my kids! yay! the boys were fun but brandon kept literally jumping on me and i couldn't take it after a while. the girls were SO fun! first i allowed them to take advantage of the fact that i could lift them for a while, but i got tired of that, so i laid down like i was dead. then, of course, they all started jumping on top of me. they try to teach me bad things in chinese a lot, so i thought i would get them back by telling them to say things like "i'm a pain in the butt" and "i'm annoying" which we all thought was really funny until i told one of them to say "i'm a brat" and another one knew what that meant. then we still all thoughtit was funny, but they knew i was being mean.
AND i'm teaching kitchen tomorrow which means all the kids will love me!

celestieall @ 2005-05-11T13:40:00

2005-05-11T05:48:26Z

note to self: flip flops are not made for traction.

celestieall @ 2005-05-10T23:09:00

2005-05-10T15:20:49Z

so i'm a lazy bum, and i'm starting to think that's a bad thing. i've actually gotten a lot done since i've been here in china, but there's also a lot i haven't gotten done...eh, i'm working on it. kinda.
oh, i would like to say that boys are dumb. girls are dumb too, but i understand them better cuz i am one. and people REALLY need to learn to stop ignoring my advice when they ask me about relationships because i ALWAYS turn out to be right. not that i'm bitter or anything.
today was a good day of teaching, but i feel really bad cuz my class was really really good all day except for the end when they were bieng kinda rowdy and i was upset about another class by that time so i was kinda mean to my really good class. ugh, i'm such a jerk!
so anyway, i'm trying to figure out if i should come home early. i pretty much have like a day to figure it out, but i might get charged and that's just not cool cuz i'm totally broke. but if i stay here i'll have to sit around here for ten days doing nothing while everyone else goes on a trip. i guess we'll see what happens.

celestieall @ 2005-05-09T23:19:00

2005-05-09T15:43:39Z

today was my first day of teaching since the holiday break thingy and things got pretty crazy. first, as i was getting my first class under control and starting my lesson, another teacher came knocking on my door. i figured the kids had locked her out of her room(yes, it happens) and she was coming to me for the key. but really she was coming to tell me that one of my best students(chad) was sitting in the hallway refusing to come to class. so i went and talked to him and, with some effort, got him to come to class where ann had decided she was now the teacher. after getting the class's attention once again, another teacher comes running in WITH all her kids and informs me that the music i hear is coming from a very loud speaker in her classroom that she doesn't know how to turn off. luckily, i was in the same situation a while ago, except that i figured out how to turn it off. i didn't know how to explain it so i told her to stay with my kids, ran to turn it off, and ran back to my class that the other teacher had let go crazy. only four of the eight kids in my second class were there today. two of them decided they would rather run through the hallways than come to class and i didn't want to chase them so i just gave lots of cool stuff to the ones who came to class. one of the runners came in for the last bit of class and started being pretty good. i was kind of annoyed so i told them i would tell their "homeroom" teacher(not the chinese one...not gonna explain...) that chris and tim were good(i held out a thumbs up), that tony was bad(thumbs down) and zach was a LITTLE good. i wanted to show that i knew zach was being better, so i held out a thumbs down...only it was actually diagonal...does that make sense? anyway, zach thought it was the funniest thing he had ever seen and showed me all the degrees of thumbs that he would have to go through to be good. it was cute. my third class was crazy and i made them sit in silence for a while. i actually slipped and told one kid to shut up and was really glad that he didn't know what that meant. and the last class was all right, so i didn't really feel the need to break something when i left class today. i think that's a good sign.

celestieall @ 2005-05-07T10:01:00

2005-05-07T02:32:43Z

well, this is my second day being home(in wuxi, not america) from beijing, so i figure it's time to write about it.
i know i didn't write much about the first two days, but i think i'm still gonna leave that how it is. i also mentioned that we went to the great wall of china on the third dayw hich was freaking awesome. this i will elaborate on.
the least stressful way to get to the great wall was to rent a taxi for the day. some people met a taxi driver who does this on the second day so we called him up and asked if he would get 5 friends to do it too so we could all go. i think he was a little overwhelmed, but he did it. they were all these black cars with tinted windows. it was like we were riding with the chinese mafia...which i guess is actually a possibility. once we got there, we still had to take a cable car to the great wall. once we got there, i noticed something almost right away. THE GREAT WALL OF CHINA IS FREAKING HUGE!!! and i dunno what china's deal with stairs is. some stairs were higher than my knee and some were barely taller than my foot. then there were some really steep places that didn't have any stairs at all! crazy chinese...after we had walked/climbed the wall for a while, we got to a place that would take us back on either a ski lift looking thing or a TABOGON!!!(totally don't care if that's spelled right)so i took that down which was really fun. i felt like i was at disneyland! only not really.
the last day, we went to the temple of heaven which seemed pretty cool, but people wanted to leave cuz it was cold. then we tried to see mao, but the thing was closed. we went to ask someone about it and stopped at some guards, but we didn't have to ask. there were lots of chinese people coming up to the guards and we knew wnough chinese to know they had the same question we did: why is mao closed? the sign says it should be open! they didn't really give a reason though. they just kept saying to come back tomorrow at 8:30. typical chinese. so i didn't get to meet mao after all. sad day.
i also bought a TON of stuff while i was in beijing. i'm getting a lot better at this bargaining stuff, but i still know i paid too much for some of it. and i kinda don't really want a couple of things i got...

celestieall @ 2005-05-04T21:42:00

2005-05-04T13:56:17Z

today was amazing. it really was. we went to the great wall of china and it was absolutely fantastic. maybe i'll write about it another time.
i'm just way too upset right now. i try way to hard to hide my personality traits that even have a chance of being disliked by someone, but since i can't CHANGE those traits, i end up just not really having a personality. people don't hate it if i'm around, but they don't really notice either. unless they only want their select group there, which happens quite a bit it cliquey groups like this one. but i don't have a clique, so i pretty much wander wherever. one thing(among several) that really bugs me is that my roommate beth never leaves our room. she's always in there reading scriptures or preparing lessons or some other thing that makes me feel like a bad person cuz i never do it. but every single person in this group, at the sound of the name "beth" goes off on how cute and wonderful she is. recently, possibly just when this trip started, one of the cliques adopted her. the only reason i'm any good to talk to is apparently because i'm most likely to know where beth is. beth is a great girl and i really do love her. but it makes me really mad that i got one of the worst looks anyone has ever given me just cuz i said it bugs me that i have to wait for her a lot cuz she kinda wanders sometimes.
anyway, that's not the main problem. i was just getting frustrated with people because everyone in this freaking group is so late for everything and they never follow through on plans and they always change things at the last second at the inconvenience of others. i can't stand that. i'm a very punctual person and i like to have things work according to plan. well, that is, if there is a plan. i don't like planning very much, but if there's a plan i want to stick to it! so i was getting frustrated with people and i guess it was showing a bit more than i should have let it, but everyone got mad at me and one girl told me that i should be making the plans if i'm gonna be upset. that was actually a really bad argument because all i was trying to do was make the already existing plans actually happen, but i didn't say anything. then the acrobat show we were trying to get to was sold out and when we came back, everyone got a greeting from the group still here except me. i feel like i'm being a pathetic middle school student all worried about how "cool" i am, but i really don't care how many people like me. i just wish SOMEONE did.
i guess that's not fair to say though. beth likes me. but beth likes everyone so it doesn't exactly make me feel special. i've also never really been able to talk to the typical "good girl" or "nice guy". i can really appreciate and admire those people, but i just can't manage to feel comfortable around them.
you know, to be honest, i'm not even sure what i'm upset about. i just am.

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